10 10 2009

see the post title? it's a date la! tomorrow ade openhouse/birthday party sikit. kat rumah sape? rumah saye la. takkan rumah jiran saye yang india tu plak? hehe. so, td br lepas beli brg sikit. esok pagi kene start masak. fuh, masak sendiri wooo kali ni. selalunye catering jeh (nmpk sgt pemalas nye tu). tak pe, tak pe. sekali sekale rase REAL penat buat openhouse. haha.

mlm tu nk kene pegi rumah shaffiq plak. die pon buat openhouse the same day as me. mengade! kau kate hari tu nk buat 4 haribulan?! nk jgak buat same dgn aku kn? hehehe :P mmg mlm tu saye sbg tuan rumah hilang kejap lah. tak pe kot. kawan2 sume dtg ptg. plus, ramai lagi tuan rumah yg ade kat rumah tu selain aku. so, tak pe la..... KOT.

footnote : shaffiq! A(yg bawah umur tu) dtg ke tak? kalau die tak de, aku x mau dtg! hahaha :P

27 november 2009!

OMG! I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEW MOON! DAMN! CEPAT LA 27 NOVEMBER! TAK SABAR DA NIH!
UE NOE, I'VE BEEN THIS EXCITED SINCE I WATCHED THE EXTENDED TRAILER ON MTV VMA 2009. AND I'VE READ THE NOVEL!! SOOOOO, THAT'S WHY I'M SO EXCITED. WAKTU BACE BUKU TU DULU, SAYE IMAGINEKAN CERITA TU IN MY HEAD IN MY OWN VERSION LA KN. TAPI BILE DA TGK TRAILER DIE TUH. IT HAS ALL BECOME CLEAR NOW!! WOOHOOOO.... WALAUPON NEW MOON KELUAR TIME SAYE TGH SPM TAPI, THAT WON'T STOP ME. SLM JADUAL KN ADE GAP? SO, I'M GONNA HAVE THE TIME. YEAY!! HAHA.


footnote : bagus tgk cter nih time kite tgh spm. boleh release stress ;D

is it okay?

tahukah anda bhw saye adalah salah satu calon PLKN 2010? yaaaaaa... saye terpilih! syabas terhadap saye kn? kn kn? mule2 bile saye dpt tahu yg saye terpilih, saye mengaku yg saye sgt lah tak suke nye! mmg tak suke lah! bkn sbb psl activities they gonna have there, i love all of those kinda activities ok! yg saye tak suke ialah saye kene berjauhan dgn family saye. and maybe sbb tak dapat dduk rumah. itu saje. spoil brat? mmg. part nih, saye ngaku saye manje. haha. tapi lame2 saye mcm da tak kesah da. ye lah kan. saye rase itu sgt once in a lifetime experience. rugi sape yg tak dpt kn? kn? kn? (ayt mcm ayt nk menyedapkan hati je ni) haha.

tapi minggu lepas kan, saye kan tak sehat taw. saye kene gastrik + demam + gatal2. yeeeee, itu pakej pertama. die complete set, kalau pakej kedua, gastrik jeh. kalu pakej ketiga demam dgn gatal2 jeh. kalau demam mmg dtg dgn gatal2 sekali. die dah mmg pakej. ceyh, lalok da kau nih efa. haha. tpi mmg pon. dari kecik, saye kalau demam saye akan naik gatal2 satu badan. pakej keempat ialah sinus saye iaitu rhinitis. penyakit ni tak payah ckp la. saye mmg ade sejak saye baru boleh merangkak kot. da sebati dgn jiwa raga ni. haha :P

so, back to the story (da jauh sangat menyimpang dari carita awal), saye kan saket minggu lepas, saye jumpe lah doktor saye, Dr. Siti Hawa. dah cek2 semua. die tetibe bukak cter psl PLKN.

dr. siti : efa SPM kn tahun ni? dpt PLKN ke?
efa : aah. dpt. tapi tak tahu lagi dapat kat mane and batch ke berapa.
dr. siti : oooo, (lepas tu die pandang mama) sister nk ke die plkn? sbb saye tgk record die nih, kerap saket jeh lately nih.
mama : aah. itulah. saye sbena nye mmg risau jgak. tapi, ye lah kan. die da dpt. nk buat mcm mane.
dr. siti : saye bule buat surat yg bule excusekan die dr plkn.
mama : ouh, ye? tgk lah dulu mcm mane.
saye sbenanye mcm suke. tapi mcm tak suke pon ade jgak. suke sbb kalau saket tak delah susah2. bcoz i'm sure kalau saket kat sane nnti seksa woooo. especially kalu kene rashes sume tuh. nak2 plak gastrik. pergghhh. mmg tak seksa la kan. bak kate arep 'seksa doe kalau saket kat sane. especially kalau gatal2'. cayalah arep! kau je yg memahami penyakit aku memandangkan kau dan aku ade penyakit yg same iaitu kulit terlebih sensitip a.k.a kulit secondhand! (kate arep la) tapi tapi abg am kate rugi la kalu tak pergi. itu saye setuju jgak! like i said before, it's a once in a lifetime experience.

and pagi tadi mama saye hanta saye pergi sekola. bile da nk smpi die ckp :
mama : adik, mama risau la adik nk pegi plkn. sbb awk tu mudah saket. mama igt nk buat surat doktor psl ur condition like :

• alahan yg sgt teruk
• gastrik

efa : (buat muke mcm confuse) ouh, oke. (then salam dan keluar dari kereta)

jadi sekarang ni saye tak tahu lah. saye tak kesah. kalu pegi, pegi la kn? kalu tak pegi, tak la kn? i'm sure you gonna feel like 'eeee. manjenye budak ni.' tapi saye tak kesah pon sbb anda mungkin tak paham condition saye yg sbenanye.

footnote : ssghnya sakit itu penghapus dosa2 kecil. ;DD

i'm sorry...

my oh my.... why is this happening to me? god, i can't afford to lose you A. you're one of my closest friend. you've helped me soooo much. you've always been there for me. we've been through together so much. i'm really glad that you're my friend. you've been soo nice to me A.

but, i never thought that thing would end up like this. i don't even want it to end like this. all i can say is i'm sorry A. I really really really am sorry. i guess i freaked out. i did FREAKED OUT when you said those 3 words.

you wanna noe why i freaked out? i think i have a phobia. yup, a phobia towards those 3 words. ceyh, poyo la kau efa. haha. but yeah, i think it's true though. bukan lah phobia sgt pon, tapi entah lah... saye mmg takot kalu org ckp I LOVE YOU nih. maybe sbb patah hati dgn mr.S (bukan name sbena) dulu. haha. :P

lagi satu bile si A ni ckp 3 words tuh, saye mcm agk terkejut sbenanye bcoz i think i've made it clear with him yg saye mmg hanye suke die sbg kawan. tak pernah lebih. i think he knows that. he said that he loves me bcoz no one ever care for him the way i did. well, i guess he has mistaken me for my caring way towards him. dah kawan kn? mmg lah kne care for each other. i guess maybe terlebih sgt aku care for him smpi die tersalah anggap kn? but i'm not blaming you A. i'm the one whose having all the problem. erti kate lain, JIWA KACAU! haha. bcoz saye rase tak slh pon kalau die nk confess kn? dah kalau itu yg die rase, nk buat mcm mane? tapi mslhnye skang nih, i don't have the same feeling as him.

so i seriuosly think this is my fault. aduh, but whatever it is.... i don't want us to be apart from each other. when you said that 'saye takkan call or contact awk lg. saye tak nak la awk rase x comfortable' it crushed me. seriuosly it did. and i couldn't stop you from doing that. i don't have the guts to do so. i don't want to make things harder for you. i wanna give some space for you.

footnote : it's oke. time will heal efa. in'allah :)