ni untuk u....

song : ego

artist : beyonce feat kanye west

It's too big, it's too wide,

It's too strong, it won't fit,

It's too much, it's too tough,

I talk like this 'cause I can back it up,

I got a big ego, such a huge ego,

But he love my big ego, it's too much,

I walk like this 'cause I can back it up,

It's too big, it's too wide,

It's too strong, it won't fit,

It's too much, it's too tough,

He talk like this 'cause he can back it up,

He got a big ego, such a huge ego,

I love his big ego, it's too much,

He walk like this 'cause he can back it up,

footnote : lagu ni says it all kn u? u ckp je i have a big ego, u pon same! hahaha.

i don't understand...

i don't get myself right now...
i wonder how can i be smitten to you....
i mean... we have sooooo much differences (i think so)....
and you're definitely the man who can be 'hazardous' to me... get what i mean?
but there are times where you can be sooooo sweet... yes, my heart melted of course....
and and there are also times where you can be such a hyper kid!
i love that actually... i love it when you start laughing... your laugh really does potrays the purity you have inside you :)
plus, you can be mean sometimes... you really say what you want to rite?
but i guess that's just one of your way kn... its ok, i'll get use to it...


however, i know that deep inside you.... you're a nice person... :))


and, i am really falling for you.. i do.. i guess the difference we have are the reason i'm attracted to you :)

footnote : PAGHOK da kau ni efa. haha

tak kisah tapi kisah?

footnote : aku giler dr umur 4 tahun. jgn layan sgt.

thanx sue! :)

beb, thank you soooo much for today!

kau tlg aku dgn add math aku!

thanks a million aite!

btw, thanx 4 keeping me company..

nasib baik kau ade. kalau tak ......... =_=

hahaha. thanx again beb! :)

footnote : nadia n amani. i wish you guys were there. its no fun without you guys.

i think i'm falling for you ;)

I don’t know but

I think I maybe

Fallin’ for you

Dropping so quickly

Maybe I should

Keep this to myself

Waiting ’til I

Know you better

I am trying

Not to tell you

But I want to

I’m scared of what you’ll say

So I’m hiding what I’m feeling

But I’m tired of

Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ for you

erh, i guess that lyrics says it all ;). shit, this can't be happening. am i really falling for you?! people, i'm in serius trouble here!

to be honest, i've never felt this way before after mr.S. like da lebih setahun da x de feeling mcm ni. wah! hehe. funny thing is, i used to hate you! because i noe you're the same type as S. you noe i've been avoiding you for like.....berbulan2 kn? hehe. and i've promised myself to not to fall for your kinda 'species' bcoz i noe i would get hurt again.

but, look at me now. from the moment we went out together (eventhough it was a quick one), i just can't stop thinking bout ya. i kept on smiling, i could feel the butterflies in my stomach, my whole body would turn cold, and... i think i'm starting to like you. no, i do like you. i like you! ;)

i want you to know that, i really do. but... i'm afraid you don't feel the same way. i know a lot of girls are after you. or are you the one whom going after them?! eh, ape ni? ape ni? argghhhh. i hate that. i hate to have that kind of thoughts you know. it really bugs me. but it keeps on playing in my head. like "eh, die ni player la." pastu karang tukar plak "eh, tak kot. die mcm oke je ni :)". pastu tukar balik, "eh, die tak reply pon text aku? msg ngan pompuan lain la kot"

i'm sorry ue.... but i don't get ue. serius i don't get ue. i'm sooooo confused with you. of course i won't tell you i like you. i want you to show me that you really like me. like you really really want me. then only i'll let you noe the truth ;)

footnote : so,i decided to start think positive about him :)

flash mob klcc

take a look at this. flash mob at klcc. cool kot. ;)

cool kan? sbb ade mak cik2 sekali yg nari. haha. i recognize the 3 boys on the stage plus a few dancers. and, mamat yg pakai topi biru yg nari kat ats stage tu la yg aja saye step untuk audition hari tu ;)

footnote : awww... he's cute! :P

flash mob? :(

(sambungan dari recent post "this is all for you B!"(

a text msg that i received on the 19th oct, 3.30 am. but i read it at 6.15am. baru bgn tido kan

"CONGRATULATON! you have been selected as one of the flash mob dancers for beyonce I Am Tour Concert & entitled the FREE TICKETS! training sessions start this monday, 19th oct & tuesday, 20th oct, 6pm daily at Kompleks Rakan Muda Bukit Kiara. Full rehearsal on 21st Oct, at Stadium Nasional Bukit Jalil yet to be confirm. please do reply me yes or no to your availability as in we provide rm100 for practice allowance! contact me direct at this. thank you & congrats!"

-Boojae FloorFever-

so, as you can see, i've been selected as one of the flash mob dancers for beyonce's concert in malayasia. erk, flash mob tu ape? alaaaaaa. flash mob tu yang die nari ramai2 tu. mcm yg dorg buat tribute untuk MJ dulu tu.

x paham?

jap, tgk ni.

haaaa. get the picture? hehe. so, last sunday iaitu 18 oct, i went to the audition dkt kompleks rakan muda bukit kiara tu lah.

frankly speaking, ade jgaklah terkincit2 step disane sini time audition tu, but bantai jea. saye mmg confident lebih. haha :P

so, itu je lah. next morning tu i found out i got the audition. i jumped off my bed kot! siap nari2 lagi. happy punye pasal en. (aduhn pecah rahsia... malu2) :P

and my sister, abby pon dpt. kak suzie pon! kwn2 abby yg lain pon same. kalu i mention kat sni korg bknnnye kenal pon. haha.

time concert tu nnti, kiteorg kenelah nari mcm kat video kat ats tu. tapi2, kiteorg nari lagu lain and kiteorg tak lah pki mcm tu. plus, kiteorg ade kaum lelaki juge ;)

TAPI......

i'm sure all of you know yg beyonce punye concert postpone kn?! perghhh, hancur hatiku ini.... haha.

haihhh. but look at the bright side, saye punye study untuk spm tak terganggu la kn? :)

tapi tapi takot mcm rihanna dulu. postpone punye postpone, rupe2nye cancel. baek punyeee.

footnote : come on beyonce, don't disappoint us!

lupe plak...

nadia! terima kasih jemput umah kau! mknn sume superb! aku suke soto kau! :DDD
siap ade surprise lagi, tetibe 'mamat' tu dtg pulok. mmg tak terkejut lah aku! naseb baek amani ngan shaffiq ade ;)
and and nasib baik die hensem ;)
hahahaha. gatal siot aku.

and to you 'mamat'(nama sbena die bukan mamat oke) terima kasih bwk i pergi umah kwn ue mlm tu. i had fun with you actually. thanx again!




footnote : shit, aku da mule ____ ke dkt mamat ni? jgn doe. bahaya.

this is all for ue B

shit!! i'm fucking nervous man!!
omg! nad, sue, amani! i need you guys for this...
argghhh.. kan best kalau korg ade weyh.... nad! aku nk kau IN sekali dlm bende nih dgn aku. sue and amani... i need ur support! :(
aduh, mcm mane ni?
tak pe efa... take it easy.. come on.. ue can do this..
confident kene ade.. walaupon kau tak reti dlm benda nih, berlagak je mcm kau reti.. confident level tuh penting ye adik2... hahaha :P
wish me luck people! i'm gonna need it.
ouh, i'm gonna need a lot of deodorant also coz i'm gonna sweat like hell! eeewww!! hahaha :P



footnote : korg tak paham eh ape yg aku mencarut ni? tak pe, nnti aku cerita eh? malu la nk cter skang. hehe..

eeee.. tak jeles pon aku tgk kau dan si dia...
tak pon... wekk!! tak pon....
sape kate aku jeles?! mane ade... mane ade....
haaaa... mane ade? aku tak heran pon la bila kau ngan die....
da biase da tgk.... bluek!! tak heran pon.... aku OK la...


(padahal.... dalam hati....)


amek kau... retak seribu... hahaha



footnote : excuse me for my imbalance hormone :P

i'm tired with all of this

aduh, aku da penat la dgn kau ni. serius aku da penat dgn perangai kau. asyik aku ni jeh yg risau psl diri kau tuh. mcm aku ni plak yg melebih2. kau tu? mcm tak kesah pon psl ape yg kau da buat.

well, you proved to me yesterday yg kau tu mmg tak syg diri kau tu sendiri. buat ape aku nk jage diri kau kalau kau sendiri tak sayang dkt diri kau? kau ckp kau da berubah. kau ckp kau berubah sbb aku.

aku da ckp dgn kau kn jgn berubah sbb seseorg. you change bcoz ue wanted to. bcoz you really want to be a btter person. tgk ape dah jadi skarang? bile jd mende2 mcm ni kau da buat perangai lame balik da.

aku tak suke la kau mcm ni. sorry to say, but kau mcm budak2. tlglah jd matang skit. aku tak kate lah yg aku ni matang SGT tp cube kau pike balik ape yg kau da buat tu. kau tak rase ke ape yg kau buat tu ridiculous?

and part yg lagi ridiculous adelah apabila kau ckp yg kau da tak bule kwn dgn aku sbb dulu aku pernah ckp dkt kau, kalau kau screw up again aku akn disappear dr hidup kau. come on man! itu hanyalah satu treat untuk kau untuk tidak men'screw up' kn hidup kau lg! (rojak habiss ni)

you really have disappointed me. you broke my heart. i thought you really have change, but you lie to me kn? you prove me wrong dude. you seriously did.

sekarang ni aku da tak kisah da kau nk buat ape. it's your life. kau da berjaya prove dkt aku yg kau selama ni da 'berubah' for nothing. sia-sia je lah usaha aku selama ni yg cube membantu kau. thanks for that.

kau kwn aku, of crse la aku nk bantu kau. sape tak syg kawan weyh? so, sekarang ni suka hati kau la nk buat ape pon. aku bnyk lagi anak nk jage. lulu n lilo lg. a new baby lagi (garfield).

so, that's it! i'm seeting you free. kau buat lah ape yg kau nk pon. YOUR LIFE, YOUR CALL. it's all in ur hand mister!



footnote : maaf kalau tersinggung. i'm just being honest. honesty is the best policy kn?

BHG

BROKEN HEARTED GIRL BY BEYONCE

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

footnote : this song says it all :')

BEP yaw!!

BEST ALBUM OF THE YEAR!
for me la kan... lagu2 die sume MANTAP ye adik2!
will.i.am isthe greatest lah in making music. ;)


footnote : bile dorg ni plak nk dtg mesia?

thannx guys!

thanx aizat, iqhwan, am n aidil. :))
lame tak lepak ngan korg.
btw, aizat! hepi birthday! birthday kite same kn? kn? kn?


footnote : rindu nk lepak ngan bff saye :(

i'm 17!!

sebenarnya gamba diatas tak ade kene mengena pon. heheheh. well, today is the 15th october which is my birthday!! :DD thanks to everyone yg wish! sayannngggg korg! hehe.

uuu... sedanyeeee ;DD

well, birthday saye tahun ni mcm special sikit sebab ari ni ade gerak gempur chemistry! yeeee, ape lagi care yg terbaik untuk men'celebrate' birthday anda kalau bukan dgn menjawab paper chemist. superb lah! ;)

btw, i got a present. a very surprising present. like a big big unexpected one! i seriusly didn't see it coming. well.... i got a..... KITTY! a PERSIAN kitty to be precised!

tgk die tu... he's a boy... tak ade name lg. any idea?


tengok 'bondod' die tuh. hehehe.



gomok! sebijik garfield ! die pemalas n kuat tido...



eleyh, pejam2 mate plak die.

well, sbenarnye... saye tak bersedia lagi untuk menerima seorg lagi 'anak'. yg due lagi kat umah tu, lulu n lilo (my pet rabbit) da ckup da.

and i'm not a BIG fan of cats. i love them. but keep them as my pet? i doubt that. tapi da org bagi kn? tak baik la tak terima. kecik ati die ni.

aduh, mcm mane ni? hmmmm... btw, thank you sooooo much abe am! appreciate it!


footnote : aduh, serba salah ni.

ape sorry sorry?

arghhhh... tak de sorry sorry....

sorry naik lorry la...

hahahahahaha....

footnote : marah ni

haihh... awatnya penat lagi ni? tido da cukup da rasenye. terlebih cukup plak tu. kaki lenguh2. badan sengal2. bestnye kalau dpt urot... nk g spa lah? ;)

kejap lagi openhouse lagi! yes! dpt mkn lg! hahahaha ;DD

footnote : i miss you :(

what a day!

sedang saye baring di atas katil ini sambil lappy berada di pangkuan. saye nk cerita sikit ni. hehe. seperti yg anda tahu tadi saye ade openhouse + birthday party sekali. :) it was soooooo tiring but worth it :)

i woke up at 7.30. mandi2 then i had my breakfast. pkul 8.30 da stat berjuang di dapur! saye, mama, kak long and due org bibik bertungkus lumus untuk memasak menu2 yg dirancang seperti :

1. laksa china
   
2. lontong
   
3. rendang daging
   
4. kuah kacang
   
5. lompat tikam
   
6. pudding
   
7. finger food
   
8. myan kam (it's a thai food)

erh, tu je yg ingt skang ni. yg lain tu lupe la. hehe. so here are some of the pictures of the day. tak bnyk tgkp gmba la. kinda busy. soryyyy :)

guess da start smpi...

dan sampai lagi....

dan sampai lagi dan lagi

hah. da row ni dah penuh

row ni pon..

pulut kuning. it's for me n my mum's birthday. ouh, forgot to tell ue, kiteorg gabungkan birthday sape2 yg lahir bulan october. so, it's me, my mom, damian n dania :)

here is some of the food. aduh, lapar plak tengok. hehe.

dania's cake!

damian's cake. ala... da kene potong da.

video waktu nyanyi lagu birthday kat dania n damian. damian tetibe ngengade plak time nih. nyampah! ;D

the cakes n cupcakes! erh, saye tak sempat rase cupcakes tu :(

eh, tgk birthday boy ni. lari2 plak die.

rakan2 tercinta yg sdg mencuba myan kam. glad they love it :)

seronoknye mereka


sedap tak makan?

terima kasih sudi dtg :)

nadia n sue sewaktu menunggu parents mereka untuk mengambil mereka.

ha. ini saye da penat sgt da ni. smpi mencangkong. da tak larat da nk diri.

boys and girls! meet baby ucop! comel kan die? my god, geraaaammmmmmnye tgk die!! rase nk geget2 je die. aku kidnap jgak budak ni kang.

meet damian hensem and adam gorgeous! comel sgt budak due ekor ni! sori la gmbr blur skit. gmbr ni je yg nmpk muke adam. gmbr lain sume hanco sbb die suke lari bile org nk tgkp gmba die. die tak suke papparazi sbb die gorgeous sgt. haha :P


meet dania the birthday girl and daffi. daffi ni kakak adam. comel kan die. besar esk ni hotstuff ni. haha.

so far the function was oke la. walaupon RAMAI kawan2 yg tak dtg. tp tak pe la. tak kisah. korg better come up with a REALLY REALLY REALLY GOOD REASON. sbb aku da mmg plan nk tacing nih. muahahahaha.

td saye dilande dilemma same ade nk pergi rumah shaffiq ke tak. mule2 tak nk pergi sbb penat gler kot. nk jalan pon lutut rase ketar2. tp i changed my mind after that bcoz since my openhouse tak rmi my BFF yg dtg, saye rase like super sedih la kn. so sy x nk shaffiq rase mcm tu. jd saye kuatkn semangat jgak pergi rumah die. tak rugi you i pergi rumah die. nasi kerabu n laksa die terbaek ah!! aku da la tak mkn satu hari (walaupon umah penuh dgn mknn), kenyang aku nok! hahaha. thanks shaffiq! :)

aduh, penatnye nih. exhausted like hell! i gtg. i need to sleep ASAP!

footnote : sape yg tak dtg umah aku, aku tak nk kawan ngan die seminggu!

OMG! OMG!

OMG! OMG! BEYONCE NK DATANG MALAYSIA!!! OMG!! OMG!! SHE'S COMING ON THE 25TH OCTOBER!! AKU NAK PERGI! AKU NK PERGI! AKU NK PERGI! MANE BOLE TAK PERGI. SHE'S MY IDOL OKE! ADUH, HARAP2 LA BOLE PEGI. RAKAN2 TERCINTA! SAPE NK PERGI SEKALI?? :DD


footnote : hai, makin nk spm makin galak plak aku nih nk enjoy. haha :P

tak ape.... dah tak kisah da sbenanye...

td amani msg saye. die ckp :

"efa... syud have told me everything yg berlaku waktu **** td. maafkan aku tak dpt nk teman kau waktu tu. bile aku dgr benda tu, darah aku naek. mendidih. she doesn't suppose to talk to you like that. die tak de hak nk ckp anything bout ue efa. we know ue more than she knows ue efa"

thanx amani! i really appreciate that! syg kau. muahhxxx!!! :')

well tadi time ***** saye kene sembur sikit a.k.a sindiran atau tegoran yg agk kasar. erh, saye sbenanye terkejut apabila BELIAU berkata2 begitu terhadap saye. nk tahu ke die ckp ape? erm, psl sy tak tutup aurat dekat luar + psl saye penah msk magazine. dgr mcm tak sakit hati kn? tp cube dgr care die ckp in her own way.

hey, i didn't mean to talk about her behind her back. but, please... i've been dealing with this kinda bullshit since i was form 1. ape yg die tegor tuh mmg la betul. but the problem here is, care die tegor tu mcm more tu nk memalukn saye dlm kelas.

yg best nye la kn. td die ade ckp ngan aina mcm ni "aina... boleh tak saye nk sentuh sikit psl awak? tak pe kan?" aku ingtkn ape la yg die nk tego. rupe2nye nk ckp psl trial pmr aina dulu die x dpt straight a's. tp pmr dpt. ingtkn mende serius ke ape kn. tp bile time nk ckp psl aku tak de slm tak de ape. terus je bukak citer psl aku. mmg aku tak terkejut lah kn. well, it was so nice of you %*%^(%^ untuk meminta izin dgn aina untuk menyentuh psl die. penuh dgn COURTESY. dgn saye tak perlu la kn? sbb saye rase awak rase golongan mcm saye nih tak perlu di treat dgn penuh COURTESY kn?

saye ingtkn dlm dunia nih, diskriminasi yg ade cume lah terhadap black people. itupun da kurang zaman sekarang nih. tidak sangka pulak saye golongan yg tidak bertudung nih pon nk diskriminasikannye. nmpk gayenye saye nih pon dlm golongan black people. saye nih black ke? saye cerah la jgak kn. mungkin da gelap sikit la sbb asyik pergi pulau dulu.

haihhh. i'm tired with all of this. i noe i salah. aku mengaku. aku mmg slh. and ape yg die ckp tu mmg betul. cume apa yg die 'cube' lakukan tuh mcm tak kene jeh carenye kn.

saye rase.... ini ape yg saye RASE la kan. lagipon saye bknnye hebat dlm bidang agama nih tapi saye phm la jgak en. saye slalu rase bhw sy sbg manusia yg biase saye x penah JUDGE org by the way they look and i NEVER JUDGE people punye keberkatan ke hape ke. bcoz saye rase itu antara die dgn Allah. mane kite tahu die tu berkat ke tak berkat? ape hak kite nk ckp die tu mendpt keberkatan Dia atau tidak?

tapi itu ape yg saye rase lah. mungkin BELIAU yg agak wara' itu mmg bole rase org tu mendapat rahmat dan keberkatan-Nya. wallahualam.

apa2 pon, walau silap mcm mane pon saye ini. walau kotor mane pon saye di mata anda wahai &^#^&^@, saye hanya inginkan sedikit 'layanan yang tidak mendiskriminasi' saya. saye hormat anda. sumpah, saye respect awak.

saye bkn shj respect awak, tetapi saye juge salute awak. saye tak rase ade org lain yg mempunyai determination and strong will seperti awak. alangkah baiknya kalau you could see more in me than just a 'pompuan yg tak tutup aurat'.

footnote : ape yg saye tulis nih end kat sini jeh. sekian.

this goes to you young man!

last nite i couldn't sleep... you wanna noe y? well because all of sudden YOU pop into my peaceful happy carefree mind... mcm2 i pike psl you. especially time kite ade text hari tu. thank you very much S! i couldn't ask more!

"i pon suke you... tapi kalau i single time tu, i mesti da....."

DA HAPE HAH? DA HAPE?? how dare you said that to me? how dare you! you dun noe how it really kills me inside when you said that you still have feelings for me. for god sake, knp you kene torture i mcm ni? you obviously dun noe how hurt it is to hear someone that you SAYANG who happens to be yg da ade gf da pon ckp yg die still sayang kat you.


you think i wanna believe you? please! bule blah. dulu mungkin lah i ni dumb nk percaye ape yg ue kate tu. skang nih? dah tak da. bcoz i believe, kalu ue really2 like me at that time, you xkn buat ape yg ue buat kat i dulu tu. and you wanna noe y i've been avoiding to see you everytime you ask me out? can't you see?! i dah x nk ada ape2 da ngan ue! nada! zero! tak paham ke hah? let me put this in terms that people like you can understand. I DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU ANYMORE. haaaa. skang baru ue paham kot? memandangkan muke ue tuh muke ala2 mat salleh kn. mungkin bhs tu baru ue paham?

you... come on la... you have a gf dat loves ue more than anything in this world... just please love her the way she loves you. don't ever do to her what you did to me oke? cukup je la i sorg yg ue tipu. x payah la nk buat damage kat hidup pompuan lain plak.

bcoz the damage that you had done to me is hard for me to fix it. obviously i gotta fix it on my own kn? buknnye ade pill ke ape ke.

hey you! FYI, a few months after i had the major meltdown with you, i had a bf. but it couldn't last. you wanna noe y we broke up? he said that he knew that i'm still not over you.

now, can't you see what you had done to me? maybe you rase mcm i ni oke je kn? maybe you rase mcm mende yg ue buat tu tak tnggl kat pape kesan pon kt i kn? well, you're totally wrong mister!

you wanna noe what's the difference between us? UE SUKE I. whereas, I SAYANG KAT UE. for me, there's a big difference between suke, sayang and cinta. and i tak berani lagi nk ckp yg i cinta kat ue sbb seriuosly i x paham pon cinta tu ape. i cume penah syg org jeh.


so, that's it! i had enough of you.

footnote : harap maaf. entry kali ni saye emosi sikit. lame sgt da pendam kot. saye jnji lepas nih tak de da entry yg merane2 nih.

10 10 2009

see the post title? it's a date la! tomorrow ade openhouse/birthday party sikit. kat rumah sape? rumah saye la. takkan rumah jiran saye yang india tu plak? hehe. so, td br lepas beli brg sikit. esok pagi kene start masak. fuh, masak sendiri wooo kali ni. selalunye catering jeh (nmpk sgt pemalas nye tu). tak pe, tak pe. sekali sekale rase REAL penat buat openhouse. haha.

mlm tu nk kene pegi rumah shaffiq plak. die pon buat openhouse the same day as me. mengade! kau kate hari tu nk buat 4 haribulan?! nk jgak buat same dgn aku kn? hehehe :P mmg mlm tu saye sbg tuan rumah hilang kejap lah. tak pe kot. kawan2 sume dtg ptg. plus, ramai lagi tuan rumah yg ade kat rumah tu selain aku. so, tak pe la..... KOT.

footnote : shaffiq! A(yg bawah umur tu) dtg ke tak? kalau die tak de, aku x mau dtg! hahaha :P

27 november 2009!

OMG! I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEW MOON! DAMN! CEPAT LA 27 NOVEMBER! TAK SABAR DA NIH!
UE NOE, I'VE BEEN THIS EXCITED SINCE I WATCHED THE EXTENDED TRAILER ON MTV VMA 2009. AND I'VE READ THE NOVEL!! SOOOOO, THAT'S WHY I'M SO EXCITED. WAKTU BACE BUKU TU DULU, SAYE IMAGINEKAN CERITA TU IN MY HEAD IN MY OWN VERSION LA KN. TAPI BILE DA TGK TRAILER DIE TUH. IT HAS ALL BECOME CLEAR NOW!! WOOHOOOO.... WALAUPON NEW MOON KELUAR TIME SAYE TGH SPM TAPI, THAT WON'T STOP ME. SLM JADUAL KN ADE GAP? SO, I'M GONNA HAVE THE TIME. YEAY!! HAHA.


footnote : bagus tgk cter nih time kite tgh spm. boleh release stress ;D

is it okay?

tahukah anda bhw saye adalah salah satu calon PLKN 2010? yaaaaaa... saye terpilih! syabas terhadap saye kn? kn kn? mule2 bile saye dpt tahu yg saye terpilih, saye mengaku yg saye sgt lah tak suke nye! mmg tak suke lah! bkn sbb psl activities they gonna have there, i love all of those kinda activities ok! yg saye tak suke ialah saye kene berjauhan dgn family saye. and maybe sbb tak dapat dduk rumah. itu saje. spoil brat? mmg. part nih, saye ngaku saye manje. haha. tapi lame2 saye mcm da tak kesah da. ye lah kan. saye rase itu sgt once in a lifetime experience. rugi sape yg tak dpt kn? kn? kn? (ayt mcm ayt nk menyedapkan hati je ni) haha.

tapi minggu lepas kan, saye kan tak sehat taw. saye kene gastrik + demam + gatal2. yeeeee, itu pakej pertama. die complete set, kalau pakej kedua, gastrik jeh. kalu pakej ketiga demam dgn gatal2 jeh. kalau demam mmg dtg dgn gatal2 sekali. die dah mmg pakej. ceyh, lalok da kau nih efa. haha. tpi mmg pon. dari kecik, saye kalau demam saye akan naik gatal2 satu badan. pakej keempat ialah sinus saye iaitu rhinitis. penyakit ni tak payah ckp la. saye mmg ade sejak saye baru boleh merangkak kot. da sebati dgn jiwa raga ni. haha :P

so, back to the story (da jauh sangat menyimpang dari carita awal), saye kan saket minggu lepas, saye jumpe lah doktor saye, Dr. Siti Hawa. dah cek2 semua. die tetibe bukak cter psl PLKN.

dr. siti : efa SPM kn tahun ni? dpt PLKN ke?
efa : aah. dpt. tapi tak tahu lagi dapat kat mane and batch ke berapa.
dr. siti : oooo, (lepas tu die pandang mama) sister nk ke die plkn? sbb saye tgk record die nih, kerap saket jeh lately nih.
mama : aah. itulah. saye sbena nye mmg risau jgak. tapi, ye lah kan. die da dpt. nk buat mcm mane.
dr. siti : saye bule buat surat yg bule excusekan die dr plkn.
mama : ouh, ye? tgk lah dulu mcm mane.
saye sbenanye mcm suke. tapi mcm tak suke pon ade jgak. suke sbb kalau saket tak delah susah2. bcoz i'm sure kalau saket kat sane nnti seksa woooo. especially kalu kene rashes sume tuh. nak2 plak gastrik. pergghhh. mmg tak seksa la kan. bak kate arep 'seksa doe kalau saket kat sane. especially kalau gatal2'. cayalah arep! kau je yg memahami penyakit aku memandangkan kau dan aku ade penyakit yg same iaitu kulit terlebih sensitip a.k.a kulit secondhand! (kate arep la) tapi tapi abg am kate rugi la kalu tak pergi. itu saye setuju jgak! like i said before, it's a once in a lifetime experience.

and pagi tadi mama saye hanta saye pergi sekola. bile da nk smpi die ckp :
mama : adik, mama risau la adik nk pegi plkn. sbb awk tu mudah saket. mama igt nk buat surat doktor psl ur condition like :

• alahan yg sgt teruk
• gastrik

efa : (buat muke mcm confuse) ouh, oke. (then salam dan keluar dari kereta)

jadi sekarang ni saye tak tahu lah. saye tak kesah. kalu pegi, pegi la kn? kalu tak pegi, tak la kn? i'm sure you gonna feel like 'eeee. manjenye budak ni.' tapi saye tak kesah pon sbb anda mungkin tak paham condition saye yg sbenanye.

footnote : ssghnya sakit itu penghapus dosa2 kecil. ;DD

i'm sorry...

my oh my.... why is this happening to me? god, i can't afford to lose you A. you're one of my closest friend. you've helped me soooo much. you've always been there for me. we've been through together so much. i'm really glad that you're my friend. you've been soo nice to me A.

but, i never thought that thing would end up like this. i don't even want it to end like this. all i can say is i'm sorry A. I really really really am sorry. i guess i freaked out. i did FREAKED OUT when you said those 3 words.

you wanna noe why i freaked out? i think i have a phobia. yup, a phobia towards those 3 words. ceyh, poyo la kau efa. haha. but yeah, i think it's true though. bukan lah phobia sgt pon, tapi entah lah... saye mmg takot kalu org ckp I LOVE YOU nih. maybe sbb patah hati dgn mr.S (bukan name sbena) dulu. haha. :P

lagi satu bile si A ni ckp 3 words tuh, saye mcm agk terkejut sbenanye bcoz i think i've made it clear with him yg saye mmg hanye suke die sbg kawan. tak pernah lebih. i think he knows that. he said that he loves me bcoz no one ever care for him the way i did. well, i guess he has mistaken me for my caring way towards him. dah kawan kn? mmg lah kne care for each other. i guess maybe terlebih sgt aku care for him smpi die tersalah anggap kn? but i'm not blaming you A. i'm the one whose having all the problem. erti kate lain, JIWA KACAU! haha. bcoz saye rase tak slh pon kalau die nk confess kn? dah kalau itu yg die rase, nk buat mcm mane? tapi mslhnye skang nih, i don't have the same feeling as him.

so i seriuosly think this is my fault. aduh, but whatever it is.... i don't want us to be apart from each other. when you said that 'saye takkan call or contact awk lg. saye tak nak la awk rase x comfortable' it crushed me. seriuosly it did. and i couldn't stop you from doing that. i don't have the guts to do so. i don't want to make things harder for you. i wanna give some space for you.

footnote : it's oke. time will heal efa. in'allah :)